Joyful is the soul when we first hear its whispers for the soul knows the person can not turn back… I wrote this in my journal the other day and have been thinking about this…I am an artist. I paint. I create. I make stuff that never existed before, its inside of me so deep my soul sings it!! Cant deny it, i cant stuff it into a hobby corner. Once i knew i needed to pursue a creative life/career and let go of the ” what i think everyone thinks an adult and mother should be doing as a career”, everything changed.. Its scary. The fear of not being taken seriously. The fear of disappointing the very people i look up to.. the fear that maybe im crazy for going for it… in time some of it softens but i have no choice but to work toward my souls creative calling, its about acceptance. I will never be happy working in pharmacy or cashiering or stuffed up somewhere in an office wearing shoes.. 🙂 i need this creative life. My soul needs this!
For me, finding other artists has been monumental to the process! Luckily i have stumbled upon a great community of artists through groups such as Journal 52, DLP, Art exchange happy mail love and then Flying Lessons and Art 101: artists supporting artists. So far its mostly women, women that support, share and uplift each other because they understand the artistic life. They understand the artists way of thinking. They understand that need to create and how fulfilling it is. They also know the ups and downs and all about that inner critic. Having understanding folks in my life, even if its online, has really helped turn my thoughts and feelings into a possible reality. Ive been watching others taking steps toward their dreams like picking up a brush again, sharing their art, writing their first blog post :), opening a shop, selling their first painting, learning the business side and stepping out in courage! What an inspiration! I am so grateful for all of these wonderful folks! Thanks you art friends!
Speaking of taking steps, starting a blog to share my art and my process is one of mine. When something FEELS like a big deal, it just means that its important to us. People start blogs everyday, all the time. Ive been looking at this wordpress “add new post” for over a month and coming up with excuses like, i dont have finished art to show, what do i really want to share, i dont like how this blog looks and other nit picky stuff. You know what my art friends say? Just do it! Just do it. Start.They know it will be ok. They know they made their first blog post and are still alive! We all have to start. So with my free plain blog and no pictures yet i am just going to do it. I dont know how this blog will end up but I am starting. I dont know what im really doing but im starting. Here we go. I am going to post this now… and by that i mean hit “Publish”, not “save draft” and come back later.. lol 🙂 Thank you.